train trip c ikwahom(with ikhwah)

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

salam alaykum..huhu.interesting title ay?

here's the story behind it:

today i went to class as usual.on d metro(train) i realized i was with an ikhwah n a non-ikhwah.we went into d same wagon n i tried to get as far as i could frm them.n when i thought i was far enough from them i start to relax.suddenly the train reached the next station,and as usual the pushing started.i was pushed to the center of the wagon.when i turned to my left (there was a free space-which is very rare in the morning trains), i saw ikhwah A there.uh oh i thought.that crushed my hopes to get more comfy.i tried as hard as i can not to even brush a bit of his coat.i tried as hard as i could until we get to the next station.at this sttion a a really big guy came in between us.'PHEW!',i thought.i felt relievd.at that moment i felt that there's something wrong with the way i reactd to that situation.double standard?oh YEAH..then pushing startd again as people struggled to get out..i was left with my thoughts...

we have d feeling MALU only with ikhwahs.which is so wrong.everyday we ter'touch', ter'push', ter'hug' russian men..n we dont even think twice.(pardon d language).when there's an empty seat available we dont try to see weather beside it is a guy or a girl.we dont think,we just do.in other words we are desensitizing ourselves with ikhtilat.n our double standardness rises higher each n evryday.we are getting more 'MALU' with ikhwahs by d day, n more 'TAK MALU' with evryone else.

i'm telling myself before anyone else iAllah

let's change for the better iAllah with Allah's guidance.ameen